Sometimes when I come to the office, or even at home, I begin to work on some blog or post of some sort, I try to work on Forethought Ministries, or plan Youth events, and my mind begins to reel over the countless things that I have done, and the consistency to which my heart longs for the things that are not pleasing to God, and I immediately wonder if I am unworthy of the work to which I feel equipped.  How can I love Jesus and continue to have a heart that does not please Him?
Rage (which is Murder)
Lust (which is Adultery)
Hate
Laziness
Covetousness
Greed
Selfishness
Each of which creeps into my heart, infecting it with a blackness that is unworthy of the gospel message.  To be called a son of the Most Hight God, and to share in the work of my Heavenly Father seems, at times, far to great a task.

 ¹²So then, brothers, we are debtors, not to the flesh, to live according to the flesh. ¹³For if you live according to the flesh you will die, but if by the Spirit you put to death the deeds of the body, you will live. ¹⁴For all who are led by the Spirit of God are sons of God. ¹⁵For you did not receive the spirit of slavery to fall back into fear, but you have received the Spirit of adoption as sons, by whom we cry, “Abba! Father!” ¹⁶ The Spirit himself bears witness with our spirit that we are children of God, ¹⁷and if children, then heirs—heirs of God and fellow heirs with Christ, provided we suffer with him in order that we may also be glorified with him.

The key must be to humbly call upon him like a child.  To cry out to him, “Abba! Father!”  To know that we are incapable being like Him, so long as we attempt to do so apart from Him. 

I pray that we will run humbly to the Father each time our hearts are infected by the darkness of sin, and that our longing will always be to sit near the feet of the Almighty, basking in the great mercy and grace of the One who came to save us!